Hey everyone! So today is my youngest son’s birthday and also marks the end of 4 of 6 months I have given myself to make this site happen. My youngest is not here today as this weekend he is with his mom which of course makes for some strange feelings. Just strange to not see him on his birthday. Although I am going to try and take him for ice cream later today if time permits. I have to play tonight and he has plans for the afternoon with friends so we will see if it works out. This brings me back again to perception and how I decide to think about today. I spoke to him on the phone and he doesn’t seem to mind waiting until Sunday for ice-cream when he will be here anyway. So the non sense in my head about it being sad that I’m not seeing him on his birthday, is really just that, non sense. The brain. So crazy.
Anyway this brings us to why I wanted to write today. We hear a lot about gratitude and its importance to living a happy life. It is something I have spent most of my life almost ignoring and I am slightly ashamed to even write that. On the first tripfuse cd I had a song called Granted which I was obviously at some level aware of however, I don’t feel that song really had much direction as far as lyrical content. It was like I was trying to say something but didn’t. lol.
So with it being 4 months into the site and trying to make it work to pay my bills I have to say it has been one rough ride thus far mentally. Now some things have gone really well and I truly am excited! Another part has been very difficult. I don’t feel I have money to see a therapist but I am. In a way I feel I have to. It has been very beneficial and I am looking forward to seeing him this Tuesday again.
Gratitude and guitar: Well many times when I am feeling overwhelmed or I have just run another Facebook ad campaign to find it failed like the others I will pick up my guitar to play. No real objective other then to use it as a form of meditation. Which it very much can be (of course depends what you are working on. lol). More often then not when I do this I find myself becoming grateful for what it is I can play and what it is I have and have built. Sure at the moment I am broke and not sure what is going to happen in the coming months but for those moments the guitar is giving me back everything I have ever put in. And for that I am very grateful!
I do believe there really is something to being grateful and practicing it daily. I even did a 30 day challenge about a year ago where I had to do these gratitude exercises every day. It was a good month. I should consider doing it again. Maybe I will and maybe I will use twitter to share with others. I will post twitter link below if anyone has interest.
So I will wrap this up by saying I am working harder then I have ever before on this site. I have come to realize I am doing a lot of things that probably don’t matter that much. That has been a challenge for sure, just trying to figure out what is important. The one thing I know it is important to give material that people want but after all these years teaching, I am still not always sure what people want. Anyway the journey continues and back to work I go. I have been using the pomodoro technique where I work 25 minutes, break for 5 , work for 25. Seems to be working and I got this blog and a couple other things done in 25 minutes. Yay!!
As always, thanks for taking the time to read this and being a part of this journey with me. It means a lot!
Teague