Morning and I hope you are having a good start to this day. Cloudy and rainy here on the west coast (surprise surprise lol). So I titled this gatekeeper of your mind because nothing has been more important to my productivity and mental well being these last couple weeks. For those not familiar with the term it means to be in control of what you allow yourself to think about. In other words keep the negative crap out. Much easier said then done. I think my gatekeeper takes a lot of naps. lol
I am now two weeks out of playing at the Roxy. I’m more than ok with it being finished however I realized this morning how much I am looking forward to the live stream later today. I think that is because without that gig and not teaching a lot right now, I’m not seeing or interacting with people much. I have never felt I needed much of that anyway but I’m looking forward to the live stream just to be able to have some contact with people 🙂 Hopefully if you are reading this in time, you will be in there. If not maybe you will catch the next one. Link to schedule will be below.
I also meet with my therapist tonight which I also look very much forward too. At this particular time I cannot afford therapy but at the same time I don’t think I can afford to not go. I have never felt so much pressure to be productive. Not just productive but to do the right things. The things that will move the site and my music forward. I say my music because I have been writing a bit lately but if you want to talk about messing with my mind. As far as time spent, working on lessons and the site seems like it will have the potential to pay my bills but working on my music……ah that is where the gatekeeper needs to be on full alert. I have always written music since I first started to play. When I only knew 2 chords I wrote my first song and performed it at a school variety show.
And as far as the gatekeeper is concerned, it isn’t that I can’t think about writing but I have to be very careful what those thoughts are. I’m also finding that with all this recent uncertainty that my mind has a tendency to go into places of self doubt and insecurity. Which seems a bit crazy as I know where I sit as a musician and teacher. It is amazing what stress and anxiety does to the mind. How it starts to pick away at all areas of ones life.
Anyway, I am not writing this to be all sad. The last few days have been good. Productive and positive and today will be the same 🙂 I have been working on so much material. If you are not a member, you should consider getting the limited access membership for free, just so you can be a part of this with me! You will find the form on the page below where you will also find my upcoming stream schedule. Please come say hi 🙂
https://www.musiclearning.com/gtr/live-streaming
So as I said in the last blog I’m not sure what my intentions are with the blogs. I might use them to let you know what I have been working on and what is finished. There would be so much to list at this point I’m not sure if that even makes sense. I’ll think about it more. Now I’m going to join a webinar that starts in 1 minute about marketing online. lol.
Thanks for taking the time to read!
Teague